Memorial

Even though it has been years since we've been close, I will always consider B a good friend. He always gave a listening ear to anyone that needed. He would do anything for any one of his friends. One of the most selfless people I've ever met. Unfortunately he decided to make what is considered a selfish decision, and my friend Brandon, took his own life. I've had a really hard time wrapping my head around it all, and I think I'm still in shock. It's been well over a week and I don't think it's fully hit me yet. I have gone through many emotions, sadness, anger, confusion, etc...I have felt physically sick over it at times, but with all that I still kind of feel like it's not real. I wish it weren't. I wish that no one would ever feel so sad that they felt the only option they had left was to leave this world.

To B, I hope that you are free from the pain and sadness you felt. You are missed and loved by so many! Wordtoyourmom.com


I have many memories of Brandon, but one that stands out to me right now is when Stephen and I started dating exclusively, I begged Stephen to go with me to this place where Brandon was running a hang out of sorts. They had a little snack bar area and a place to just hang out and listen to people spin records. My main reason for taking Stephen there was to introduce him to some of that group of friends, because they were good, close friends, and both were important to me (that group of friends and obviously Stephen). Stephen probably doesn't remember this, but sometime during the night, after introducing Brandon and Stephen to each other, Brandon jokingly (but meaningly as well) threatened Stephen that he better not break my heart. He was always looking out for me. :)

B was one of the most upbeat and positive people I've ever met, though I know he's had a hard life, and that almost made him seem more amazing..to go through what he has and still be so positive! I always saw him doing amazing things, and he seemed so happy from the random things I'd read on Facebook more recently, but appearances can really be decieving that way. I wish he could have turned the tables and let someone else be that listening ear and shoulder to lean on when he needed it.

Just a reminder that depression is serious. If you, or anyone you know is depressed please get help, don't let it continue to spiral out of control. There is always hope.